About me

My mom thinks that i'm handsome
i don't really believe her (moms alwiz praise their own children anyway)

my kindergarden friends think that i'm an idiot
i smacked them with lego blocks to prove them wrong

my siblings think i'm the most rebellious and naughty in the household
i just think that i need to break the monotony in the household

my primary school friends thought that i was snobbish
i believe i carried my parent's dna gene of sarcasm

my parents' thought that music would be good for me
i'd just say that it affects a great deal of my life

my uni mates think that i have a scary face
i probably enjoy scaring them subconsciously

my high school friends thought me crazy to study in penang
i understand them now

my dog loves me
i know it just loves everyone

my lecturer says that i should smile more
i think i should smile when i feel like it

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COmplexes 2

Time for phase 2 of building complexes....

i guess this is the way i handle stress?? is this even stress?? it's weird....

and i find that these complex feelings manifests itself more whenever i'm doing work in the middle of the night and i get bored.... and start thinking of a lot of things. what i've done so far, how i'm wasting my potential and life in this place and what i could've done better....

these things don't happen when i'm around other ppl. well yeah, coz i don't see a need to be like that around other ppl. it's the concept of self i've learnt a long time ago...

"nobody can lift u out of depression or sadness unless u urself is willing to"

has alwiz been my core belief. i guess.

also could be because i have such jolly bunch of friends around that could distract enough. physically, through conversation and head-banging sessions ^^

songs are alwiz the best in bringing out and amplifying these weird feelings. strings and backup vocals are very powerful stuffs to draw out emotions and raise goosebumps.

currently listening to this song by mayday "unknown title" but repeats the words "ying wei you ni" in the chorus. good companion during complex moments ^^

2nd song highlighted currently is tanya chai's shuang qi dong wu

best not to have too much complexes!!!!! @.@

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Complexes

Shopping complex?
Lolita complex?

It ain't called complex for nothing. Coz it's not simple.
it's as simple as that.

What is complex?
The way i think, act and feel
it wasn't simple
i thought i was ok
but i was not
it was more complex than what i anticipated

sometimes u can c traits in other ppl but u can't c it that clearly in yerself.
it's hard to analyse urself when u're still going through the motions.
but when u wanted to do it, it's already over and done with.
A doctor can't diagnose him/herself eh? (probably good ones can)

comfort and cooling down comes from unexpected sources
it was perplexing but i won't go into detail about it
just knowing that it will work in the future is enough
i know it will. good service.

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