bittersweet stuffs

bittersweet stuffs are stuffs that are made up of things that you enjoy and yet it brings back memories of loss and pain whenever evoked...

most notable of all are hearthaches... caused by the loss of loved ones [death] or probably lost love. [break-ups, cheated, too-late love or rejected love]. i've seen ppl who had been affected by hearthaches... the damages are powerful at times at epic proportions that it warrants a great song written about... i guess that's why most good songs are alwiz about break-ups and loss love coz a lot of people can relate to it. these things are almost universal.

the sad things is, it's not universal that everyone can actually become immune to the pain of these hearthaches. at times it leads them to do illogical and irrational things. specimen A was and still is a good example. specimen A really has my pity. i hope he'll be well. really do hope so. unrequited love is tough. i understand. decisions are alwiz the path-splitter. there's no save and load button in real life. what's done is done. never regret your decision after doing it. despair, be sad, cry over it and move on but never linger. coz if you do, it'll just eat away at you. it's a life-learning process. repeat and rinse.

infatuation is weird at times. it can pop out from nowhere. it can wreck u emotionally. especially vulnerable ppl are those who are normally loners who lack interaction with the opposite sex. i have this problem. still bothers me at times. not good. doesn't help. dissapointment pops out at times. i'm good at hiding them but it rears it's head at times. it's sad at times. it's tough at times. it's traumatizing at times.

solace comes in? friends, food, songs, games and sleep. always thankful for all of these. alwiz wish that i've never ended up in this place. the past 4 years has seen the worst part of me emotionally [not just in terms of infatuations] and i really don't wish for it to affect me for the rest of my life. truly think that it has.. just please not by a LARGE magnitude

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about this blog

u are not welcome!!!!!! u shall not pass!!!

naaah... step where u want, when u want. like i care =.=
that's my indifference in action. [or my constant attempt at it]

point is, it's not meant to b entertaining, meant to b criticizing, or meant to b anything at all.

it's just -----> me. but not fully me. no no no no no. of coz not. coz i never fully reveal what i think about. too much trouble. too much hassle. too "narcissistic".

flame/shoot/comment all u want. i might respond, most probably not. y? coz i feel like it laa... prob coz i deem u unworthy of response; i.e. u're not ready for the true answer. XD

have fun!!

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human imperfections

superheroes are loved.... but they also have weaknesses. coz writers+producers consider that the weaknesses part will be appealing to mass audiences. well, i don't blame them.... at least there's something that ppl can relate to... to have a sense of empathy as well.

humans will surely have weaknesses. Flaws within their characters. somehow one way or another... those flaws become part of their nature whether be it confrontational, passive, aggreable, sohai, evasive, always in a state of denial, aggressive, full of criticism or whatever shit u can think of...

my point is, their nature, in a way CAN be understood and it normally shapes their thinking, arguments and policies in life. however, problems start to occur when u know that their nature does not seem to present any solutions at all.

most often than not, these nature of theirs are further amplified by very common factors that become barriers in the harmony of friendship and teamwork. i will call these common factors as 'boundary factors'. these are some that i've identified: (no doubt that there's always more)

• ego
• sloth
• love
• lust
• narcicism
• pride
• ambition
• sensitivity

it's important and imperative that we should understand the nature and the boundary factors that cause conflict between people. once their nature and can be identified... most often than not, a solution can be achieved once both parties understand each other's nature+boundary factors.

problem is; what happens when self is one of the parties involved? coz no matter what, self is still a human with flaws... with own nature, own weakness and own boundary factors.....????

mayb i'll get the answer in my breakfast later.

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despair.....

is it justified to cause pain and suffering on other people and deciding not to resolve it at all?

i've always had this policy that if you can't change it in the present time, u jz make best of what u can out of it... or you just ignore it. be indifferent. let time take it's course lest u jz get more white hair....

somehow, it has always worked fine....

just feel that prob i'm at the verge of my patience... even indifference doesn't work at times...

have to admit.. no matter what the situation u will alwiz b affected... even the tiniest bit has an effect... u jz try to sleep it away. or make it go away. or bash it up. or jz don't think about it....

i don't want too much white hair now... so here's to preseverance to carry on the indifference!!